Try my best and let God do the rest
As a Christian, have you wondered what your relationship with God is like? Over the last few years I am constantly thinking about this question. When I get asked by my friends, ‘Why are you a Christian? I cannot help but to answer them with what my relationship with God is like and what we have been through together, the many battles and struggles he has helped me to fight and overcome.
Everyone’s relationship with Him is very different, and thus I can say that mine is also very unique.
Our relationship grew the strongest during my studies. Exam after exam, test after test, essay after essay, I sometimes felt my childhood innocence was being stripped away by knowledge and the maturity it thrusts upon you. Carefree now turns into problematic.
Doing my A-levels to get into university was such a long and hard climb. Studying and revising until the library closed was not only a challenge of mental stamina but very daunting too.
Faced with such a challenge I have always prayed for wisdom, knowledge and stamina but most importantly His presence of peace. But during my exam period, I broke down and asked my mother why my prayers don’t get heard and He wasn’t doing anything to help me! I was worried, stressed and tired. Time was merciless, waiting to hand me my next exam paper and then snatching it from me before I had even finished.
I wept that very evening, but my mother told me this story:
“A man was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonged to him and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you you'd walk with me all the way, but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me." The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you." – (Footprints story)
Comforted by the story and reflecting on this part of my journey, when I can no longer walk, it is He who is always with me, carrying me on his back walking towards the finish line.
This, my brothers and sisters, is the undying love he wants us to know and understand. With his presence storms can be calmed and even time bows before Him. I can testify to this because in one of my last exams when time was scarce, he gave me the gift of the longest last 5 minutes of my life to finish off my exam booklet.
Therefore, to my brothers and sisters that are sad, stressed and burdened with different challenges in life (especially the students), I share this story with you as a reminder that you will never be alone in God’s family because He is always there to carry you and teach you how to overcome the challenges of life.
Matthew 11:28 - Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
Deuteronomy 1:31 - There you saw how the LORD your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place.
Deuteronomy 33:27 - The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms.
Isaiah 46:4 - Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.
My relationship with Him doesn’t stop here. Like a Chinese storyteller fanning himself under the shade of a grapefruit tree, I am just warming up with the many stories I would like to share about my journeys with the Lord.